07 October 2008

that time of the month

http://www.nanowrimo.org/

Will I do it? Do I dare?

I've started this in two separate years - 2001 and 2002, I think - and both times I didn't get very far. Those attempts were ages ago, pre-baby, pre-marriage, pre-everything that is wonderful and cool in my life. Now I'm a lot busier, and a lot more self-aware.

I've always said that there's a novel in me. But while I enjoy reading both personal essays and novels, I'm not sure I could really write either one. The personal stuff is too -well, you know the adjective I'm getting at here. As for novels, for some reason, I'm not too interested in creating a new character. (And you wonder why I stopped improvising ...)

So I guess I'll keep it in the back of my mind, and maybe remember again on November 3rd, like every year, and go back and forth again about starting it. I'll write for a few days, then forget for a week, realize that I can't catch up and that I'm not crazy about what I've started writing, and drop it.

Every November, I'm reminded of how much I want to write, how much I don't like writing, and what failure feels like. Ah, Fall!

2 comments:

alexlady said...

ooooh so tempting...

if i do nano i'm gonna cheat and pick up where i left off last year. maybe if i do that EVERY year i'll be done by 2015!!

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Lauren said...

The thing is, I'm moving on October 21st, and I'll need something to do as a procrastination tool to escape unpacking and setting up the new place.

But will I procrastinate by NaNoWriMo-ing, or by unpacking? Which am I really trying to avoid doing?